Bunty

01:57 pm: On my mind...
Organising moving house from four hours away,
Trying to explain to people what I own. It is mine by rights.
Worried that possessions I hold no value to will be taken by someone else.
Uncertain of reactions. Glad to be leaving, was nervous to move in there,
Should have been a sign.
Contacting people to explain, my faith in people has waned because of her.
Am I detached? I am acting uncertainly.
Wondering what his motives are. He wants to visit me.
Tattoos move about his body, colours on skin. He grins.
Kisses and wishes, will wants become needs?
I am smiling, I like his smell.
Tomorrow I see her, a shiny diamond ring.
Curls and smiles, a doof doof beat. Cigarettes and man in tow.
Two cars, all their belongings.
Change happens quickly to all.

Tags: thoughts

01:57 pm: A week or so, no more.
So I realised that I have not posted anything up here since I quit my job.

Several things have happened since then that appear to have had an affect of my life. Firstly, I arrived home from my last day at work only to have my house burn down. A story I have now recounted so many times I feel it has generated its own form and moves out of my mouth separately to conscious brain activity. In saying this, it is true that most things that leave my mouth are not connected in any way to brain activity.

There has been an overwhelming outpouring of emotion and kindness on the part of other people. Cassie_lee appears to be well compensated for some of her losses and I appear to be blessed with an over abundance of clothes. I am asked daily as to the state of Trystan and his injury.

After nights and nights of not sleeping I managed one great night, followed by last night, a sickly snoring snotty time in which Sara and I tossed and turned.

I have slept at a different house each week, looked at some houses with Sara and Lachlan and even applied for one.

I am living out of my car and off other people's kindness since I have no income I have managed to stay afloat on Elizabeth and her mothers generous donation of $300 which is serving to fuel both my car and my body.

I caught up with Wiggles, for those of you who might know of this situation, this could have ended terribly. Instead, it ended almost pleasantly. Scott (my space cadet) burned some cds for me including ladyhawke, oasis and daft punk. I fell in and out of obsession, I saw several youth workers one of whom has helped me. I got drunk on more than one week night. I had sex. I went to centrelink to get a youth allowance form. I applied for a job at Video Ezy.

I have spent days clutching the edge of sanity and looking over the edge. I like being up high. I think I will remain here looking down on many possibilities that could have been and still may be.

I was given well wishes from many.

A benefit concert was organised for my house mates and me. I am entirely uncomfortable with this but am looking forward to the actual music.

I was given a wonderful pair of preloved Docs. It made my week.

I miss my house.

05:06 pm: My most recent panic attack
I can't write

08:46 pm: Writer's Block: Timely Departures
I would go back to yesterday and stop myself from eating those leftovers. Bad idea.

Tags: time travel, writer's block

08:56 am: A neurotic builds castles in the air
A psychotic lives in them
A psychiatrist collects the rent

11:27 pm: Cassie's First Gift of Gratitude...

Fucken Awesome 

You're fucken awesome
You're fucken awesome
You're fucken awesome
You're fucken awesome

I'm just diggin' ya now
I'm diggin' ya now
I'm just diggin' ya now
I'm diggin' ya now

Don't wanna walk away
I couldn't anyway
You fill my empty day
You know you make me stay

Cos you're fucken awesome
You're fucken awesome
You're fucken awesome
You're fucken awesome

I’m just diggin' ya now
I’m diggin' ya now
I’m just diggin' ya now
I’m diggin' ya now

Don’t wanna walk away
I couldn’t anyway
You fill my empty day
You know you make me stay

Cos you're fucken awesome
You're fucken awesome
You're fucken awesome
You're fucken awesome

Don’t wanna walk away
I couldn’t anyway
You fill my empty day
You know you make me stay cos

Don’t wanna walk away
I couldn’t anyway
You fill my empty day
You know you make me stay cos 

- Spiderbait

Tags: mmmm nerd love

07:36 am: Josie arrived home at 6:47am. I don't know where she was all night, but I noticed her return by the soft crunching noises coming from her food bowl.

We are very relieved

07:45 pm: Josie is gone...

07:06 pm: Is it still minestrone if you put bacon in it? 

10:19 pm: Yoinked from Cassie_lee who yoinked it from ireth
 Empire Magazine has revealed its list of the "50 Greatest TV Shows" ever. So, of course, LJ-ers leaped upon the opportunity and made it into a meme.

1. Bold the shows you've watched every episode of (or near enough to count)
2. Italic the shows you've seen at least one episode of
3. Post your answers



50. Quantum Leap
49. Prison Break
48. Veronica Mars
47. Star Trek: Deep Space Nine
46. Sex & The City

45. Farscape
44. Cracker
43. Star Trek
42. Only Fools and Horses
41. Band of Brothers

40. Life on Mars
39. Monty Python's Flying Circus
38. Curb Your Enthusiasm
37. Star Trek: The Next Generation
36. Father Ted

35. Alias
34. Frasier
33. CSI: Las Vegas
32. Babylon 5
31. Deadwood

30. Dexter
29. ER
28. Fawlty Towers
27. Six Feet Under
26. Red Dwarf

25. Futurama
24. Twin Peaks
23. The Office UK
22. The Shield
21. Angel

20. Blackadder
19. Scrubs
18. Arrested Development
17. South Park
16. Doctor Who

15. Heroes
14. Firefly
13. Battlestar Galactica (new version)
12. Family Guy
11. Seinfeld

10. Spaced
09. The X-Files
08. The Wire
07. Friends
06. 24

05. Lost
04. The West Wing
03. The Sopranos
02. Buffy the Vampire Slayer
01. The Simpsons

06:37 pm:  
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10:18 pm: New Favourite Comic
http://www.kiwisbybeat.com/minus37.html
 

11:03 pm: boredom

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TSBIAGCulDw&NR=1

03:40 pm: My vagina would wear comfy pyjamas

For Stacey and Cass http://community.livejournal.com/craftgrrl/11174014.html

01:24 am: Yay

Which sci-fi crew would you best fit in with? (pics) created with QuizFarm.com

You scored as Serenity (Firefly) You like to live your own way and don't enjoy when anyone but a friend tries to tell you should do different. Now if only the Reavers would quit trying to skin you. Serenity (Firefly) 100% Galactica (Battlestar: Galactica) 100% Heart of Gold (Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy) 100% Babylon 5 (Babylon 5) 88% Moya (Farscape) 88% Enterprise D (Star Trek) 75% FBI's X-Files Division (The X-Files) 75% SG-1 (Stargate) 63% Andromeda Ascendant (Andromeda) 50% Millennium Falcon (Star Wars) 38% Deep Space Nine (Star Trek) 38% Bebop (Cowboy Bebop) 25% Nebuchadnezzar (The Matrix) 25%

08:34 pm: Shit.
Ok so today ended not so well, with me leaving a plastic container on a hotplate and then turning it on. There is something about melted plastic and burning flour that just screams poison to the lungs.

So after much coughing i opened the entire house and put on the air conditioner. It's the first kitchen incident i have had in the entire time i have lived in this house. Now i have to force myself to finish these questions for the Jehovah's Witness meeting i have to attend.

I don't feel so good right now.

Tags: hotplate, jehovah's witnesses, kitchen incident, melting, questions

12:58 pm: Fucking Tafe
Well that was a waste of a day, i hauled my sorry arse out of bed this morning, fed the cat, fed myself and rushed to tafe. Got there at 9:30 and was told our guest speaker wasn't coming till 10. At 10 they informed us that they didn't think she was coming and also that my teacher was no longer working for tafe and they would work out what was happening with my class next week. So they took the role and told us to go home again. Sigh.

Tags: tafe, waste

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